For My Late Mak

Setiap kali jumaat datang for sure aku akan sedih bile teringatkan 1 may 2009...Dgn sendiri aku tak dpt thn air mata aku tuk jatuh...aku rindu ngan mak...satu ketika dulu aku bknla anak yg rapat ngan mak aku...mungkin org kata 'panas'...sb hr lair aku btl2 sehari selepas mak...n org pun slalu kte aku ni degil...ye, aku pun mengaku...dulu kalau dkt u, 3 bulan aku tak blk rmh pun mak mcm tak kisah...tp 1 insiden yg tibe2 boleh buat mak btl2 rapat ngan aku...time tu thn 2005, aku sem 7 n praktikal...so aku duk rumah sbb sykt tu dkt dgn rumah...time tu mak aku start sakit...sepanjang die sakit aku dpt rase mcm mane perasaan die...kesian tp mak agak degil utk pegi hospital...macam2 dh cube...aku hbs praktikal ujung bulan 11 tu kitorg balik kg kat b.pahat. time tu mak dh agak teruk...nak jln mcm tak boleh...sume org pujuk nak ajak die pegi hospital die taknak...aku mmg dh slalu kena marah kalau nak ajak die gi hospital...then bile pak ngah pujuk die nak pegi...mlm tu pkl 12.30 mak aku masuk wad....lepas keluar dr emergency room...wad time tu penuh, mak aku diletakkan tgh2 row utk tunggu siang....then dr masuk ubat terus die rase nak buang air....die nak bgn agak susah, dekat situ jugak die terlepas...then mak rase mcm malu...die suruh aku lap...dgn tisu aku lapkan sbb kitorg baru n tak tau nak mintak tolong cleaner sbb time tu dh pkl 2 pagi...time tu aku tgk mak nangis bile tgk aku mengelap...aku ckp takpe...then aku dh salinkan die baju sume aku suruh die tido...tp die tak dpt tido...then pagi tu baru mak dpt katil yg selesa...selama 1 minggu aku dpt peluang jaga die sbb adik beradik yg lain tgh nak exam...dpt aku merasa mandikan die,tukakan pampers die, n macam2 la...lepas keluar wad, mak aku sihat cam biase...tp nurse pun tak percaya sbb time masuk wad tu berat die 70 kg n time keluar tu berat die 37kg jer...dkt nak 4 baldi air keluar dr badan die...n the result dr tak dpt kesan sakit ape...after tu mmg berulang ke hospital jer la...every month kena balik b.pht...then thn 2006 skali lg mak aku masuk wad utk sakit yg same...time tu raya...raya kat hospital la kitorg...last skali mak masuk wad thn 2007...time tu pun raya haji...kesian tgk die, dh mcm2 dr cek tp still result mak aku sihat...setiap kali mak masuk wad mmg kitorg adik beradik yg jaga...gilir2...n aku respect semua adik beradik aku, semua mmg best bile jage mak...semua penah berpeluang mandikan die, salinkan die pampers n semua la...thn 2007 tu skt mak paling teruk sbb die tak blh jalan lgsg...sampai ayah belikan kerusi roda...n alhamdulillah lepas tu mak sihat...sampai la hr aku tunang tu mak pun nampak hepi jer...lepas tu aku jadik rapat dgn mak....kalau aku tak balik rumah mmg die bising...
Lepas mak meninggal org ade tanye ade ape2 tanda ker...aku terdiam...sbb aku dh perasan cuma takut nak sebut...3 bulan sblm die meniggal die marah betul kat aku sbb sebulan tak balik...bkn taknak blk tp aku sibuk tuka keje baru, nak cari rumah, pindah rumah n angkat barang...sampai aku call die taknak ckp...merajuk teruk jugak la sampai aku rase tension sgt...n aku ade terlepas ckp kat tunang aku mak mcm lain...die kate aku merepek...bnyk tanda2 tp aku diamkan jer...then, mmg betul pun ape yg aku rase dr hr tu...time aku blk rumah tu die ok jer..blh gelak2...marah kejap jer...tp hati aku mmg tak boleh nak nafikan aku rase lain...
Last week mase bawak ayah pegi rumah best friend die, pakcik tu kate muka aku yg seiras ngan arwah mak...aku jadi sebak...ayah kate mungkin sbb birthday kitorg seahri jer beza, mak 24 ogos n aku 25 ogos... dan aku jer sorg anak die yg menyusu badan, yg lain2 tak...n ayah pun ckp aku yg bnyk ikut perangai mak, n mewarisi ape yg mak aku suke buat mcm menjahit, sume2 tu la...buat aku rase rindu sgt kat mak....al-fatihah utk mak....

Tag-O-Rama

as promised, now, with full of responsibility, complete the tag-o-rama, requested by my fwenz...

♥ 7 Facts about Me ♥
* Love to go window shopping sengsorang...takde org nak marah...
* Never come in my mind to be an accountant...rase cam nak jd policewoman dulu...hahahaha
* Realized that I love turquoise colour when I'm used it on my engagement day...
* Realized that I will married in another 6 months...with someone yg mmg tak terfikir la....huhuhu
* I want to buy the new Honda City 2009.. SO BADLY...
* I'm underpaid...sungguh tak puas ati...
* I 1 year old as a fiancee for Mohd Norazmi..wink

♥ 7 Things that Scare Me in the World ♥
* Tikusssss...eiiiyakkkkssss
* Losing 1 of my family members...and it really happen
* Involved in accident...mintak simpang
* Tinggal sengsorang...sangan bowink...
* Peragut @ pembunuh @ perogols..
* Jobless...mnyk utang nak kena settle tau...
* Terdampar kat pulau sengsorang...selamatkan lah daku...

♥ 7 Current Favourite Songs ♥
*Firehouse - I Live My Life For You
*Firehouse - When I Look Into Your Eyes
*Letto - Sandaran Hati...Really touching
*Letto - Ruang Rindu
*Melly - Gantung
*Rossa - Ayat2 Cinta
*Inayah - tak tau lagu sape

♥ 7 Words Mostly I Said ♥
*Ek..
*Hello / Bye
*Cane ek
*Mengong
*Mmmm
*Jap ek
*ooooo

♥ 7 Valuable Things for Me ♥
My Familee...
My Fiancee...
Real True frens...
M y Car...
Money...Of Coz
My House...incoming, yeah before i'm 30...
My Job...

♥ 7 First Time in My Life ♥
*Buy my 1st car on 12 Oct 2007.
*First time work as Sales assistant 2 at parkson grand SP...children dept...tak sesuwai...
*First time falling love when I'm 16...
*Got the best student award for SPM in economic subject...subject that i hate...hahahaha
*First time being emcee at UiTM - for Silat Cekak Hanafi Kebangsaan event...lepas tu laku jd emcee...
*First time bought my handphone during matriks, gune duit elaun....
*1st date started i can't meet my mum on 1st May 2009....really miss her...

♥ 7 “Lucky” Peeps That Need to Waste Their Time Doing This ♥